If Tomorrow Wasn’t Such A Long Time

I’m taking a much needed break from all this paperwork I need to fill out by Sunday. It’s a moment to reflect on the past couple of days. I’ve been in a state of uncertainty as of late. It’s hard not to feel this way with all that’s been happening recently. These past couple of days I’ve been burying my head into the computer screen, and the only moment of relief is the 20-minute walk I have with my dogs. It’s the only form of normalcy in my hectic life right now. With all these constant changes happening around me, it’s nice to recognize the beauty in the mundane things. It’s a reminder of how lucky I am to be in such fortunate situations. The trail I see in front of me, although crooked at times, I know will lead me to my greatest desire. The simple life. I’ve been down the rabbit hole as of late; listening to everything that Bob Dylan has wrote in his 60+ year career with over 40 albums in his discography. I’ve always loved his music. But it seems with each day that I get older, the more his words relate to me. He’s slowly becoming my favorite musician of all-time.

I thought all his best work were in the first few albums. You know the usual ones: The Freewheelin’ Bob Dylan, Highway 61 Revisited, Blonde on Blonde, etc. But I was wrong. I was reintroduced to one of his greatest love songs thanks to the Timothée Chalamet’s wonderful performance this past weekend on SNL. It was a beautiful rendition of a raw and vulnerable Dylan. A song I relate to very much today. I somehow managed to forget this tune along the years. I’m glad to be hearing it again for the first time. It’s called “Tomorrow Is Such A Long Time.” It was never officially released, and the only way to hear it was if you had his Greatest Hits Vol. II record. This song perfectly encapsulated exactly how I am feeling as of late. It’s a strange yet beautiful feeling to reminisce on the past. It brings me joy just thinking about it. Sometimes I don’t want to leave it behind. That’s why I always leave the vacancy sign on. So, I can stop by and see that familiar past anytime.

“There’s beauty in that silver, singing river
There’s beauty in the sunrise in the sky
But none of these and nothing else can touch the beauty
That I remember in my true love’s eyes” -Bob Dylan

It’s often that I walk this trail alone. Occasionally, people come and go. So, I learned how to appreciate the sound of my own company. But, I no longer hear the familiar sound of my footsteps. Because I know that I’ve grown, and I don’t recognize the man before. I’ve learned to appreciate the sound of silence now. Because it allows me to hone in on my true desire, and when all the constant sounds of the city’s rolling voices fade, a welcoming smile from a simpler time stops by to see me.

Song of the day: “Tomorrow Is Such A Long Time” by Bob Dylan